The Hollow Within

The Hollow Within

[Vr1]
I'm afraid, I'm afraid of the future me,
as the splint will go and leave emptiness and cling;
time will come and my heart will bleed,
for the one whom filled it will just flee;
the laugther, the words, make me believed,
and I'm the joker, the one who left kneed.

[Br]
Afraid of the the emotional breakdown,
the one i'll go through when the time comes.

[Ch]
The joke is on me, on me,
the nail is in my head (head),
for I was naive and indecisive,
mistaken a poison for a drink.

Repeat [Vr1]

browsing through my earlier post n stumbled upon a post dat send a chill 2 my spine.i was writing in despair about my days in 2007. constant pressure frm my family, low in self esteem, feel of underachievement, etc gave me sleepless nights. caught in an accident the next month n broke my arm, that gave me a 3 months rest from half of my problems.

new post?

it hv been ages since my last post. my life r completely different now compared to then (when i 1st post in this blog). too much to write. dun know where to start. probably in future post, ill be able to spill everything out (well.. not everything). hope that i nvr forget my blogger acc pword again. but.. i'll list out now several things in my mind right now (in case forget again):
1. my wedding(or my marriage or my love)
2. my daugther
3. my car
4. my life (uh..)

pehh. lama gila xblog. dh mcm2 aku lalui. collection toy dah melambak. keta dah tmbah kemik dan yg penting, aku dah kawin :D

huh

been more than 5 month from my last post. lots of things happened. i'm sick n tired of this life. people are miserable. hope God will hear my prayers and give me the eternal peace that i longed for.

let it be me

mcm2 blaku kat aku dan org sekitar aku. happiness n sad blend together. a coin have two sides. that also applies to any thing that happens in our life. they all have 2 sides of the story. aku lak, xperlu la cite ape2. coz there are things that i have to cover and people i've to protect. its me that have to be sacrificed,sbb bkn aku yg perlu mhadapi sapa2. so xkisah la.

let bygone be bygone

aku harap, lembaran baru akan terbuka kali ni.

1/2 step down

"Apabila senyum semakin suram;
Apabila kecewa banyak ku pendam;
Apabila luka ditambah dengan yang lebih dalam;
Itulah tanda cintaku kan kunjung padam."

aduh! ngantuknye

i have trouble getting enough sleep last night. every 10 minutes i woke up and spending 1 hour try to sleep again.and, the result: today is the most tiring day in my work life. not enough rest and still have to travel 1 hour to and back from work. hmm. see the pic on the bottom left corner? i really miss her. hope december will be arriving soon.

please don't, you know where the path end

is it possible to have "friends" while you already have a relationship? how do you define friendship? what are the limits? how do you know that your friendship doesnt change to affection; as friend do know you better, doesnt give you headache and doesnt expect anything from you? they will accept you just as you are now; for, they doesnt have right to ask you to change for them. because they are not the ones that you will live with most of your life. is it really worthy if you want to jeopardize a long built relationship so you can make some new friends while you are aware that there are chances that you will rock your relationship? so, you can add limits to your friendship. but are the limits clear enough? there are times that the border is so blurry, so messed up that you will have to make decision. how do you set the limit? can do you measure friendship? what??? am i jealous? hell, im jealous. because i've been there. and you dont want to know what it did to my life.